1:28pm

Good afternoon ☀

I have to leave in about 40 minutes or so, and I am trying to get things done, however, there are some things that you do every day, and some things that you try to do every day; one of those things for me is writing on my blog - it's not a top priority, but it is one of my desired priorities. I read something once that said everyone has 3 top priorities whether they think about it or not; mine are writing, music, and being outside - aside from my Spiritual growth. I think if anything we would shove out music for that. Other priorities for me are my body, keeping it healthy and and looking how I want, being clean, and eating good things that I enjoy. But our top 3 priorities almost always sort themselves out for us; my blog is not one of them. It feels like it is, and although it technically falls into the category of writing, it isn't one of my top priorities because for me it doesn't make any advancements in my writing and is more of a form of social media, which is not one of my priorities.
Anyways, all this ranting to say that I have been trying to write on my blog precisely because it is Not one of my top priorities and therefore sinks more easily into the category of 'never gets done at all' - because right now, I mostly fixate on my top three priorities. The reason for this? I do not have my own life yet; work is intense because I need it to be, in order to stop myself from a.) feeling useless b.) wanting to go home c.) wasting time/forgetting my purpose for coming here d.) having no money. But in the future, work will (hopefully) be a more normal and quiet part of my life, I will feel free and be my own person. For now I am in that phase of "catching up". 
What I am doing to combat this Before my 20s is having a date set (not a literal date, but a phase and chapter as a general date), for when I will be able to say "this is what I want in life". Even if that goal is only for the 5 years that follow it, I am happy to have at least something set aside as a checkpoint to guide me and to wait for me, so that after all of this I can rest and not be in debt, feeling left behind, or confused. 

Like I said at the start, I have to leave in about 40 minutes, and now I am sure that that has dwindled to 25 minutes, so I will sign off, and hopefully have a semi-early night and get up tomorrow and be wonderfully productive - I believe in myself this week!

-SS