8:40pm

Hello everybody ~

It's the ending of a tiring night, but a good one 😊

no one's fault

Somehow this song ^ feels bittersweet, like a home, but a sad home. It's a home, so you feel warm, but it's a sad home, so you feel unsure about it. Are you really home? Is what it makes you want to ask. 

Thank goodness I'm not in a relationship right now, because otherwise I might have some sick feeling about the songs I've put into my Spotify's liked folder as though they were some awful omen against me and the relationship. They're all breakup songs . . .

All the Way

                 } Jackson Wang
LMLY

no one's fault - eaJ

what is . . . - Young K

Anyways . . .

My heart had a giant rock lifted off of it today. This show is such a warm and cozy place that I'm glad to be living in right now. 
All my misgivings, fears, anger,    diffused    when they kissed. Ahh . . .
"I can breathe now", my heart said. What a relief!!

I think they knew I couldn't stand to see any more of this angst. This anxiety. This frantic feeling- how, wha . . . when . . .  ?   ?

All that suspense was almost worth it! Almost . . .

They did make it a little too harsh, but, then again, maybe it was just bad timing. Maybe if it had been gotten over with in the same timeframe it wouldn't have been such agony. Who knows! I'll probably watch it again by myself in the future if it ends well : ) (Which I think it will . . .?)

The kiss sent a wild zing down straight into my stomach. I can't wait to have my first kiss. I just can't wait to see what comes after this! I just can't wait to see this love start blossoming!! 😊🌸 
It was so passionate 😭😭 If there's one thing in this world that I love and live for (even though I've never had one) it's a passionate kiss. Man oh man . . .

Sooooooo anyways... the kiss... yeah, that's all there is on the kiss for now.

_____________________________________________________________________________________Maybe I've just been watching too many kdramas (pah- what is too many?) but I really feel like my every move is that of a show. Someone is watching my life. Someone is ready to walk into it. But most likely not. But I can still pretend... Maybe it's just the current of 18, it's so steady, the way I feel older and more beautiful. And we can't forget, what Kim Doyoung of  NCT says: "You are the main character of your own life". 

That's all for now, it's time to watch episode 9 of "I'll Go to You When the Weather is Nice" : )
Pray that the ending is nice, please!

-SS